It’s been too long…
August 2025 with baby boy
I last published a blogpost July 6th, 2023. That’s almost 2 years ago. Yet I still maintain this blog and always have it in the back of mind that I will publish one day again. Well, so much has happened. I still post regularly on instagram so please, follow me there! I’m 5 months postpartum with a 2nd (and last) baby. I had a baby girl in March ‘23 and recently, a baby boy August ‘25.
Baby Girl excited to be a big sister
Pregnancy is my least favorite experience, miraculous yes, but exhausting. Both times, my first trimester was met with unimaginable exhaustion and nausea/vomiting in varying degrees. The 2nd time, pregnancy exhaustion plus a toddler, oh my, what in the actual F? It was ghetto in all ways. The 2nd trimester seems to breeze by especially after your energy comes back. And then the 3rd trimester, I was a humpback whale the first time, and a damn beluga the 2nd time. I had a c-section in 2023 because of fetal distress and this time, I actually attempted vbac (vaginal birth after c-section). I labored actively for 24 hours and pushed for 3 hours unsuccessfully. Labor is no joke but it felt worth the extreme pain. Baby’s head was massive and actually lodged in my pelvis. I was taken emergently to the OR, where they had to perform a maneuver to get baby back into the uterus for safe c-section delivery that caused my uterus to tear and bleed violently. I lost 3L (likely more) of blood, received two blood transfusions, and was notified that I would never be able to give birth vaginally again nor carry a baby full term due to a tear at the cervix. Last baby, don’t care but thank God they saved my life and uterus.
I still practice as a nurse practitioner. In 2023, I was part time, but went per diem in 2024. I truly didn’t expect to be per diem for so long but I NEED the flexibility right now so it’s essential. I also since wandered out of the Neuro/Trauma ICU and tried a few different things. I started on the neurology service which was interesting, then a medical/surgical ICU, and even was a clinical instructor for a semester. I loved being a clinical instructor but I worked two 1/2 days/wk and it was hard for my schedule. I resumed my doctoral studies Fall ‘25 and I’m looking to finish ASAP. I’m tired of putting it off. I started the program Fall ‘20 part time with a 3 year time frame. That didn’t pan out as intended because I had my baby girl and then my world turned upside down and began to revolve around her completely.
SHOP SENSITIVE SKIN BABY
Life has been so busy. Between personal life, mom life, chasing career goals, and maintaining my sanity despite the political/socioeconomic climate, I’m surviving…barely; always holding on by a thread. I realize that creative writing is missing from my life and I realized I NEED THIS. I need to get back to the things that make me, me. I’m so much in the caretaker mode in my life to everyone around me, I’m losing sight of my inner child. I need to be nourished. Im finding small joys along the way. If you made it this far, you are a soldier with endurance for a midnight ramble. I hope to be here more. I love it here. Until next time loves, big bisous!
